There are many points in our life where things die and new things are given birth. Graduating college was the death of my school years (at least for now) and the birth of "semi-adulthood". At these death and birth points we find our character - how we grieve the death and approach new life.
I wasn't afraid to watch my school years die. They were great. I have very few regrets, if any, and I felt supernaturally blessed throughout my high school years. However it's this birth into so-called "adulthood" is making me a little more tense - maybe somewhat similar to a mother with her first child. There are loads of uncertainties; tons of unanswered questions and unknown experiences to come. This is the time where you take those dreams you said you wanted to go after and find out if you actually go after them or not.
At these crossroads you have at least two choices - to sit and cower at the unknown or to take it in full stride. In every other area of my life I've attacked it with ferocious confidence - almost an intuitive confidence. That confidence seems to have run away like a kitten frightened by a large, fast-moving object. But I'm not sitting. I'm not going to sit.
LORD, please give me strength and show through my weakness. Please help me really put my trust and faith in You during this time. Show me the way; lead and guide me. Thank You for bringing me this far and thank You for where You are taking me.
